GOD. WHY WHY WHY MUST THEY TALK IN THE CORRIDOR FOR GOD'S SAKE -.- its fucking noisy. gah. thank god i'm on dinner break. if i start studying & they're still talking i'll scream.

hmms. everyone has their addictions. its funny how the simplest things can be akin to a drug. and what we do to fulfil those cravings. to get that permanent shot.

my head's pounding. it seems that recently all i get are headaches -.- maybe its my brain protesting to e studying. not like i've done much though. HAH.

i've never really thought someone could sound so much like a braying donkey till i met that girl. bloody hell. seriously.

i think the worst feeling in the world is betrayal. its a combination of almost every bad feeling there is.

look how far we've come. so many years now. it feels like just yesterday. i don't know if its with relief or sadness or acceptance, but i can no longer see that fairytale ending. maybe its cynicism. haha. but i don't want, don't like to think of it that way. i still believe in happily ever after. (e other part to this line just popped into my head. hahaha.) but yes. like what jer told me. i need to believe in the good things in life, its just the dreamer in me. i will never be down to earth & practical. that's just me. take it or leave it (: maybe its just our paths have diverged abit now, but who knows. maybe it'll converge again one day. and maybe then i can get the ending i want. if its meant to be, it'll be eh.

3 more chapters before i get to sleep -.- tonight's looking to be a looong night. and i keep watching anime. BADBADBAD.

i really agree with chongs about being able to breathe, really breathe here in london. to not give a shit about what others to think. to not care so much about appearances. you learn to live for yourself. and not for others.

haha. random musings always pop up when i'm mugging. ah wells. that does mean i'm not really mugging -.- sheesh. OK. BYE